Rough Days

The last few days have been pretty rough around here. Corey had a bad day at work on Saturday. He left his phone at home so I had no way of getting ahold of him to talk to him about our plans for the night. He called me from work at about 7pm. We discussed the plans of going to the Medford street dance and he mentioned he had a bad day. I didn't really press for any more information at that point since he had to get back to work. When he got home around 8:30 he was very crabby. We got in the van and he was just being weird and I suggested we just stay home.

We ended up going to the street dance for about an hour then went to pick up S and went home. I went to bed because I would have to get up with S at 6:30am and Corey went out to the lake. After he left I sent him a text saying that if he was going out there to use again I would find out. We haven't spoken much since then.

Sunday was Father's Day. Corey's parents and brother, and my dad and brother all came over and we grilled burgers for lunch. The day overall was good, but Corey was in a crappy mood all day. I left the house at about 4:30 and went to supper with Kathy and then we went to the Al-anon meeting at 7. It was a good meeting and I was in a great mood when we left there. Then I got home about 10pm and there was Corey, sitting in the dark, watching TV, grumpy. I tried to have a conversation with him but all I got was one word answers.

Yesterday was Monday. Corey slept until 3pm. Got up, got ready for work and went back to sleep in the chair in the living room. When he got up to go to work he left without saying goodbye to me and S. I tried texting him a couple times to see how his night was going and I got no response.

Today he said "bye honey" to me before he left for work and that was it. Hasn't called me, texted me or said anything more to me today. I am at the point now where I will not be the one to start the conversation. Call me childish, but every time he gets into funks like this, its always me trying to fix it and make him happy. He needs to choose his own attitudes and I need to choose mine. I'm hoping he will get outta this funk soon and we can move on. I feel bad for not helping him and doing things for him but at the same time, when I do those things I am being an enabler and I don't need to do that anymore.

Well I think that's enough for tonight. I'm sure I'll have more to tell tomorrow. Until then...

Kristin